My reflection on April
Hi, I’m Shawn. It’s May 1st, 2020.
One of my monthly routines is reflecting back my previous month and planning for the new month whenever the new months start.
I decided to share my deflection through YouTube from this month.
I brought my planner. This is what I designed. And it’s January, February, March and April. And each cell is each day and I write just several words each day.
It takes just five minutes but when I review this planner I can see the bigger picture and then I summarize what’s the keywords of this month.
And if you want I’ll put the link in my description you can go there and you can download it.
So, how was your April?
For me, it’s like unplugging or it’s rebooting the computer. When too many apps were running, your CPU doesn’t have any space then we just reboot it, right?
So March and April, especially April was the month of rebooting, so no apps run. It’s like somebody pressed the computer reboot button.
The computer we use altogether. We are sharing one big computer and somebody turned it off. So it’s just completely shut down then it’s slowly booting up.
For me, before I start April, I had a consultation with the person whom I really respect. It was like my honor. And he gave me a suggestion to start a broadcast.
It’s like to me it’s the YouTube channel. I don’t have any equipment but I have my cell phone so I can start YouTube.
When I heard that suggestion, I had two emotions:
First, excitement, and the second is a doubt. Excite. I was excited because I’ve thought about it before. It would be fun. But I doubt it because of my situation.
It’s a long story but I started over my life four years ago and I’m building up a foundation and then
‘Do I deserve to start to say something?’ ‘Will it be valuable?’
Anyhow, I started. So when I posted the first video I felt something unexpected.
A lot of people forget about their dream including me and even they don’t know what they want. It’s because it’s too far to reach the dream and then we just forget about it.
But my first youtube video is kind of one step.
It’s like a thousand miles journey and I took one step close to my dream, my destination. You know, that small achievement.
I uploaded, I recorded, I edited. I uploaded it.
That small achievement gave me a certain feeling. It was very unexpected and then I did the second one and the third one. It’s getting bigger and bigger.
So what I realized is I need to do something. I need to make some changes. My action makes some changes. If it’s getting closer to my dream, then it will help me to remember my dream.
That’s what I experienced. Some experience even it’s a small step. Success experience. It’s not huge. It doesn’t need to be huge.
I just posted the first video. But it was a success to me and that helped me to remember my dream. It’s not about listening or motivation tape, or you know, that “Achieve your dream!”
It’s just a small habit so like that’s why the books about “Atomic Habits” or “Mini Habits”, they become bestsellers because they change their life just by changing small habits.
So recording YouTube became another my small habit. So that’s a big achievement in April.
Monthly Insights – May 2020
Now May start. In May I feel a lot of hope compared to April. When it started in April, a lot of people underestimated the situation.
But when I watched South Korea and China, I expected it would be huge.
But now in May I feel a lot of hope not because of the situation but now people will start to see what’s an illusion and what’s real, you know.
Of course, what’s happening is happening.
But on top of what’s happening, a lot of fear, a lot of worries. They’re all illusion.
In this situation, still, we can find a lot of things we can do.
I feel a lot of hope in May. So May is the month of passion.
We have to recover our passion and then remove all the cloud, Illusion. And then, do what we need to do.
If we prepare May well, then later June, July, when the new opportunity comes then we will take the opportunity.
But if we just suffer, spend another month, suffering by all those illusions then when a real chance comes we’ll still lose direction. “Where should we go?”
So I think May is a really important month.
Okay. that’s my reflection and planning for me.
I hope you enjoy this and help you to plan for May.
If you have your own idea of reflecting April and May, you can share it in the comment section. I’ll love to read them and see you next month.