My Second Day of Dong-ahn-guh (winter meditation retreat)
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Setting intention requires courage, sometimes.
As I accept my patterns and set intentions, I’m already experiencing changes from inside.
Until now, my old pattern served its purpose well.
When somebody abused me, I treated them energetically in the same way.
When I reflected back the same energy to them, they could feel my energy and stopped abusing me because they felt hurt too.
After that, they didn’t treat me lightly. It worked well.
However, I feel I need to change it now.
I realized I chose that pattern because I was weak.
It was the only option for me at the time.
Yet, not anymore.
In my mind, I thought of those people who abused me last a few months ago. And open doors which I put between them and me.
Of course, it required courage. But I decided to do that.
I knew that they just repeated their habit. That’s how they treat people. I didn’t need to take those cases as personal.
I invited them to my mind. Then, visualized opening the sliding doors one by one.
It felt good.
When I woke up this morning, I felt much lighter and energized.
I’ve been feeling heavy and tired lately.
But as I change my attitude, my energy felt much lighter.
It’s amazing.
Tonight, I visualize them again.
Just open any closed doors and remove any obstacles.
Now I feel like I understand them and why they behave like that.
Understanding is power.
I’m powerful.
Don’t need to treat them in the same way as they treated me.
