My Jungbub Journal – Seventy Sixth Day of Dong-ahn-guh (winter meditation retreat)
My Prayer on New Year’s Day in Lunar Calendar
Recently I felt tired because the website migration project has been intense. This morning, I woke up at 3:55 am. I tried to go back to sleep but my consciousness got clearer and clearer. Even I didn’t feel tired anymore.
Then, suddenly I remembered that it’s a New Year’s Day. And it’s In-shi (3 am – 5 am, the best time to meditate). I got out of the bed right away.
Now I remembered that the exact same thing happened last year. I didn’t plan but something woke me up at 4 am on New Year’s Day. I just got out of bed and prayed last year. It happened again.
This morning, I went out to the lanai. Our lanai is an amazing place. In front of the house, we have a huge water bowl. It’s the Pacific Ocean. Lots of stars shine like dimming lights. It’s a perfect place to pray to Heaven.
I chanted Chun-bu-kyung as a Jungbub version. It’s slightly different from the Dahn version. The translation is very different. Now I understand a lot about Chun-bu-kyung. After understanding the meaning, the power that I feel while chanting feels much different.
Officially, as of today, I finished my 3-year probation period after leaving the organization. Since I joined the organization in 1996, I vowed to commit my life to its vision. But as I felt that their vision has been changed, I voided my vow and left them exactly three years ago.
Even I voided the vow, it was an important decision in my life. I couldn’t treat it lightly. I needed time to reflect, repent and re-establish my belief system. That’s what I did for the last three years. I set the foundation for my next step.
So, I thanked Heaven for protecting me and my wife during the probation period. We could find our place and role in this community.
And, I promised to support the community and society in my position. Won’t focus on making money but will keep asking myself: “What should I do for my neighbors?” “What should I do for society?” and act on the answers. That will be the main focus during my next three-year period.
In the end, I sent my gratitude to my family members and friends in Korea and the United States who supported us last three years. Then, expanded my gratitude to neighbors, society, the country, and the world.
In the afternoon, it rained. The weather app didn’t forecast rain in Kekaha. It was an unexpected blessing. It rained quietly. The calm raindrops softly touched the dry land. The sunset illuminated the sky and everything shined brilliantly. Rainbow smiled at the end of the land.