My Jungbub Journal – Thirty nineth Day of Dong-ahn-guh (winter meditation retreat)
Ture Understanding heals
Since I felt the doubt from someone last night, I couldn’t fall asleep. Whenever I entered into the sleep state, the ghost of doubt haunted me and pulled me out of my comfort sleep zone.
I wanted to sleep early because I was tired, but ended up to fall asleep after 2 am.
My wife and I talked about it. She is a life coach. With her help, I could find out why I had the feeling.
But understanding intellectually doesn’t heal the situation. My wife deeply understood me. Her understanding carried healing energy and embraced me. I could feel that I’m understood. That had magical power. My heart opened up.
Her understanding started to release my upsetting feeling from my inside. She gave me a healing massage. I had extreme pain on my left shoulder and neck. After the healing, I slept like a dead person for 2 hours.
46th Anniversary of my parents in law
My parents in law invited us -my wife and me- to their anniversary dinner. I was not sure why I should go together. It’s their anniversary.
I had a lot of questions in my mind but I swallowed them. And joined the dinner to support my wife. And congratulated them.
It was a nice restaurant and we had good food. The only thing I didn’t like was the amount of food. I ate a small piece of fish and one scoop of rice. So, I had to eat ramen noodle after coming back home because I was still hungry.
Appreciate that they invited us. But I’m still thinking that this dinner could be more meaningful. What kind of conversation we shared during the meeting decides how meaningful the meeting was.