My Jungbub Journal – Fifteenth Day of Dong-ahn-guh (winter meditation retreat)
Resting is Healing
I was right.
The reason why I felt so much tired was that I was releasing deep tension from my shoulder.
I had a serious tension on my right shoulder. When I touched it, it felt numb-y. Especially when I reached down my hand to the shoulder blader, it got worse. The area between my right shoulder blade and the spine felt seriously numb. I worried about it.
I put acupuncture needles on my body whenever I need to relax. But it didn’t work on my right shoulder. Even after several treatments, nothing changed.
That tension has been released for the last week.
For a week or so, I felt so tired. Last night was the worst. I even concerned if I got diabetes or some sort of disease. That was a peak. I had all mixed dreams.
Fortunately, this morning I started to feel lighter and lighter. In the afternoon, I checked my shoulder and I could feel it like a normal shoulder. That tension which has been accumulated for 2 years has gone. Even now, as writing this journal, I keep checking my shoulder because it’s miraculous.
It’s one of the miracles of my Dong-ahn-guh (winter meditation retreat) experience.
My lesson is that resting is healing. I’ve slept like I was hibernating for the last week. When I woke up, I could taste bitterness in my mouth, especially in my jaws. I brushed my teeth 4 or 5 times a day and drank lots of water because of the bitterness. I guess the bitterness is some poisonous chemicals released from my brain. That was my natural healing process. Now I understand what has happened.
I’m not sure if I will return to my normal sleep pattern. But, I will allow myself to take enough rest during the winter retreat.
The purpose of Dong-ahn-guh is to take a time to reflect and to take care of what I missed throughout the year. Definitely, I missed to take enough rest this year. Now, I’m making it up 🙂
As I release the deep tension, I can feel my passion reviving strongly. It’s an obvious sign that I’m recovered. I already started to make a plan for a new website for our company.
It’s great to experience this feeling again. Feeling Passionate!!