Q. I would like to hear about your story, Great Mater. You are teaching many people and helping people be enlightened. You have said that knowledge is energy. I want to hear how you have absorbed all the energy, and how you have gotten enlightened?
A. It is a very difficult and a long story but I will tell you briefly.
I grew up in an orphanage without even knowing my parents’ faces.
I grew up in an orphanage without even knowing my parents’ faces. It means I grew up without any benefit of the world and parents. I went into a mountain to die because I didn’t like everything in this world. However, I got to know that it was my arrogance when I went into the mountain. I didn’t want to live because I didn’t like everything that people do in the world. So, I tried to die in the mountain. I went into the mountain for the first time.
However, I got in there at night and something happened. So, I couldn’t die and stayed there for a few days. And I had a huge awakening about how much I was full of conceit. What is this? When I have seen people’s faults, I should have solved the problems but I couldn’t solve it. I just casted them aside in my mind because I didn’t like them. If I don’t like the ways of the world, I am the one who can correct them but I couldn’t. nevertheless, I blamed the world thinking that I was better. There is no pride as big as this. Knowing this, I who didn’t even know Great Nature could not die.
I went into a mountain to die. But I couldn’t die after recognizing my arrogance.
I was ashamed that I only looked at wrong things but did not have power to right a wrong. So, I was on my knees from then on. I was never on my knees until then.
I was given one thing but not the other thing. I was given eyes that can see the world but I was not given the ability to solve the problem. Because I didn’t do the study, I couldn’t solve the problem. So, I knelt down on ground to learn God, if there was one and to learn anything that I didn’t know.
I knelt down on ground to learn God or Great Nature, and started picking up garbage.
Since then, I started picking up garbage on my knees. It was my first time on my knees. Whether it was toward the world, Great Nature, or human, for the first time on my knee, I started cleaning myself as I picked up garbage. I lived in the environment where I wasn’t even aware of myself cleaning, stooping, and picking up garbage immaculately.
I wasn’t conscious of this then but I realized this after my study was finished. I learned that everything will come to me when I don’t expect it at all. Why? Because there was no greed in myself. When you are greedy for the power of the Great Nature (Heaven), wicked energy can come in, but sacred Heavenly energy will never come in.
When there is no desire in me, Heavenly energy will activate, making me powerful, and opening wisdom for me by itself.
When there is no desire in me, Heavenly energy will activate, making me powerful, and opening wisdom for me by itself. Wisdom will never arise when there is greed. I realized that only when there is no avarice, the Great Nature can be with me and Heavenly energy can move. So, I went down on my knees reflecting on myself on my own. The murky energy came out from inside of myself, because I tried to find my contradictions for decades in nature.
With the energy being accumulated in me without noticing, wisdom could be opened by itself and that could make me solve any problem.
I could live without lighting a fire on a snow ice floor as my soul was pure. The reason why I could survive without a scratch for ten years in a mountain where it is imbued with a yin energy was that my soul was not murky. The Great Nature could move by itself because I had any contradiction. We cannot obtain this knowledge in purpose. Depending on how I behave, the Great Nature can be linked to me automatically, and the wisdom comes up by itself. With the energy being accumulated in me without noticing, wisdom could be opened by itself and that could make me solve any problem. Thus, I could get the power to solve any problem confronting to me.
I did not learn the letters in a book. I learned Korean Language as selling newspapers.
I did not learn the letters in a book. I am a person who quit studying from second grade in elementary school. I didn’t carry anything in my hands when I went to school. I am a person who hasn’t read a book since then. After a while, I forgot how to read that I learned from first grade in elementary school. But I learned again to find my parents as I was selling newspapers. When anyone bought a newspaper at a park, I asked to a kind looking person, “Would you read this for me because I don’t know how to read?” Then they would read it for me. And there were people who would teach me how to read. I learned how to read just in case anyone would look for me in the newspaper. So, I know how to read Korean language now.
Finally I found my parents, but …
Since then, I only looked into people searching sections in the newspaper. I have lived thinking that my parents could be searching for me. Then, I forgot about it for sometimes. And I found my parents, after all, as I became an adult. Since I had obtained some power, I started looking for my parents and I went through my birthplace. So, I sent people to the United States and finally I found my parents. By the way, it was not the parents that I imagined. My parents abandoned me although they had great power and lived in great environment. I thought my parents couldn’t find me because of their difficulties so I wanted to find and help them. But I was totally wrong. So, I let go of everything. I didn’t know all of these processes were my study.
We can gain enough power from the Great Nature to resolve problems in the world by what we see and hear.
I didn’t know that it was all for my study so I blamed others and I thought they were all doing wrong. I realized it while I was picking up some trash on the mountain.
Moreover, I realized that I don’t deserve to speak a word to others if I am not equipped. I also realized that I can’t blame others, if I can’t solve it. Moreover, I learned that knowledge was not only in books. You people have knowledge, but I have special knowledge. Everything I saw and heard was knowledge. I valued this and I got it all back. Even though we can gain enough power from the Great Nature to resolve problems in the world by what we see and hear, we don’t have the power to do it because we ignore them.
Everything that I have absorbed transformed and opened up my wisdom.
As I was picking up trash in the mountain, I accepted everything that caught my eyes and ears without opening my mouth, such as shamans’ behavior, mountain climbers or other people showing off. I absorbed all the people who spit on me or kicked me in the side without any reason. At the time, I did not know that everything that I have absorbed would transform and opened up my wisdom.
All my study materials come in front of me. It doesn’t exist far from me.
Wisdom doesn’t emerge by accident. It opens up by itself when the knowledge that I need comes into me and transform. All my study materials come in front of me. It doesn’t exist far from me. Anyone who accepted all the given studies since birth can open one’s wisdom. We don’t have to look for studying far from us. It is already given in front of us. If you face hardships by wrong management of your study, you need to take back your study at one step further. And, if you do that again, you need to go even further to look for it. That’s why you undergo difficulties.
We need to cherish and absorb properly what is given in front of us, then we can gain power to use for the next time.
The blessing of Heaven is that Heaven has given us everything that we needed right in front of us. We were so ignorant about this law that we complained about what was lying in front of us. Thus, we are suffering now as we couldn’t absorb righteously even what is given in front of us. We need to cherish and absorb properly what is given in front of us, then we can gain power to use for the next time. This is all for the question. (clapping & laughing)